Monday, December 13, 2004
memories? i've burnt dem all.
yep. i still tink abt him. he was supposed to call me on sat. i told him it's urgent and tried to sound harsh. but i soften when he was like bout wat. so bloody fierce. sigh. sms. misunderstandings alway happen. he din say anything, so i kinda noe he wun call. chat w his sis @ nite.. she ask abt me n him.. she offered to tok to him.. but i decline her help.. she felt that if he's sincere enuff.. he wldnt haf let me wait so long.. yeah.. she's kinda rite.. and the reason why she wanna tok to him was she din like wat he was doing.. he's clearly avoiding me. he msg me abt 2+ in the morning.. sayin he's busy or something.. he was @ his fren's shop again. yah. shld i blame dat fren?? haha. amelia dear, it's jeb. arghx. kinda piss w him. b4 he went to help jeb, he stil show some concern to me u noe.. now.. totally zero. of cuz, i din reply him at all. since he kept avoiding.. i.. am really giving up.. it did occur to me that wat we have.. we will never have those fond memories again.. everytime i tink abt him.. i tink of the lies.. whether he did lie to me or not.. i will never noe.. i dont even have the chance to confront.. or to noe.. is that fair? has he been fair to me at all?
jus as i'm saying i'm happy being single.. i actually do feel lonely at times.. when i finish sch earli.. and i've nothing to do.. u noe those kinda moments? i wanted to see him today.. but of cuz i din go.. why shld i? if he wanna see me.. he shld come.. but i noe.. he wldnt..
had a chat w his sis fren.. in tp too.. frm my sec sch.. hmmm.. we met each other in their chalet.. not much impression.. i was stil rather shy back denn! heh.. had a little sms chat.. and realise that we kinda shared some interest.. but i dun like the way he sound.. some teasing here n there.. aww.. it's kinda amazing too.. we barely knew each other.. met on the dae of nite cycling.. at first he din noe that was me.. and when he finally recognise me.. he was like.. u look so different.. -.-" he ask abt me n vin.. boo hoo.. my shang xin shi.. but weird eh? ahha.. dat's like sensitive man~ so i said not 2gether le lor.. haiz.. damn sad u noE.. well.. chat a bit during the break @ pasir ris.. our stop for supper.. tok a bit more.. abt our courses n so on.. ahah.. jus weird.. but he's a nice guy.. friendly.. he said.. he love da sun n sea.. *winks winks* we might b goin kayaking together.. haha.. he said we can even share da same boatt~ wooo.. haha.. i dun wanna.. tink too much.. becuz.. now.. any guy who treat me a little better wil make me kinda have some feelings for dem.. it's like.. i'm jus finding someone to feel up da empty space ya noe..
but me going w crystal dar.. kim yee dear stil tinking.. me n kim yee dear jus signed up for kickboxing!!! wooo!! heh.. everytime.. i n him broke off.. i wld be learning something new.. haha.. jus to keep myself busy i guess.. i love sun n da sea too! *giggles*
looking out at 12/13/2004 10:45:00 PM