Tuesday, November 22, 2005
this is jus' one of times whereby i feel lousy about myself. looking at my past achievements, i basically have nothing to boast about. i'm neither a Z, A or B student. definitely, not a DHL (Director Honour's List). whenever i tink about how well u did and how "well" i've done over the past sems, i feel so ashamed of myself. i'm sorry that i feel that way. i do like guys who are smarter, but not that smart i guess. u're a DHL with 3.63, i'm so. i guess 'O' Level really doesn't give one a good gauge about results. either u're good at last min studyin or jus' simply lucky. well, being consistent helps but how many of us actually do that? i went to poly as a single pointer. i wish i didn't choose to go to a poly. i could have stayed at SRJC and continue playing bb. i could have studi harder. wateva it is, it is all too late to lament over all these. i screwed up my last sem. despite working harder than the previous sem, my results only improved a little and de-proved quite a fair bit. wat am i talking about?? *shrugs* i'm suppose to be proud of u. but all these unnecessary stress upsets me, irritates me, annoys me. i don't wanna feel like a sore loser. i so hate disappointments. i-have-no-achievements. that's the ugly truth.i still don't know if i had chose the right course, right path, right future, right guy.
looking out at 11/22/2005 11:52:00 PM