i remember on the 20th of march.... u told me.. u and her would be so much natural.. becuz.. u feel that i'm too 'smart' for u... and while we were together.. there were too much pressure on u.. natural? u mean we weren't natural? sigh.. i dunno why... i mean.. i shld be happy now.. that u talk to me in a better tone.. though sometimes u still dun show me concern when u ought to.. i'm used to us being like that.. i dunno.. very confuse now.. i shld be happy! yet.. memories came back... those teary days.. those words u say.. i dunno.. just sad..

i pretend that u never said those things.. i pretend.. i can't get them off my mind.. but wat can i do? i can't tell u that u said this that time.. u said that.. but i feel terrible.. i believe i mean something to u.. but she meant something to u too.. that's why i cant get those stuff out of my mind.. i dunno how much she meant to u.. but definitely not as much as me i believe... just sad n confuse.. wonderin why i chose to go back to u.. when u said those things to me..

when u make me cry for so long.... when i saw her photo in ur wallet that day.. my heart.. just shattered.. why din u wan to let me see? in the end.. i saw.. yep.. i saw her photo in ur wallet.. printed frm da com.. so obvious..

why da sudden change in attitude towards me? i can't adapt.. i can't stop myself from tinkin wat makes u treat me better.....

my heart's cryin.. but why can't u hear my cries?

i guess.. i'm not that forgiving afterall..