what's the hardest to deal with?

honestly, everything seems difficult to handle.

especially disappointment.. i have my own views on it..

i should be well trained in that area i guess.. after all, that's what my relationship were made up of..

but how come i don't know how to react this time round? though it's another aspect of life.. i felt so useless at that point of time.. wanting to cry so much.. wanting to curse myself so so much.. however, i chose to remain silence.. silence seems the best way to escape from everything..

i can only blame myself for not doing well..

i've a feeling that most probably, i would jus fail everything..

no hopes = no disappointment

Lesson Learnt: Never Pin HIGH hopes on anything, anymore.


hmm.. jus wanna say thanks to boon, manda and kelly.. for joinin me to help out the Community Services.. to be care person for the kids who had Down's Syndrome.. though din reali manage to be one for a kid.. (there wasn't mani kids left after the refreshments..) still.. am hapi i din miss out the event.. thanks peeps~ they aren't scary/difficult kids! :)